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Tenderness in this voice,
breathy concern,
as he bends over her beautiful,
bruised face -
accidentally walloped
by another.

He has never been
this concerned for you;
even when doctors
removed organs,
stabbed with scalpels,
your wrist snapped,
needles poked,
your head howled,
and your happiness broke.

His breath near her ear
as he leans in, hot,
her small frame trembles,
pretty eyes flutter -
entitled to sympathy.

You aren't - you lump.

Capable. Sturdy. Large.
In Charge.
Practical, not
in need of protection.

You've never yearned
for a fist to the smacker
so earnestly -
to be turned
purple and red
and yellow
and green
in the name
of love.
Munchausen's Kiss
You know when you are obsessed with someone and would do anything for their attention? Even get jealous when they fuss over someone else's injury? Even wish you had the same injury, so they would fuss over you? Not healthy.

Especially as I have no end of legitimate medical woes already (diabetes type 1, for example) and logic should tell me that if he didn't pay attention to me because of those, there is no point longing for a new kind of injury too, only to be ignored still. No type of injury or illness is ever going to be "sexy" on me in the same way it will on a conventionally attractive person, who will look all beautiful and doomed and tragic and helpless.

I sometimes get annoyed that because I am over weight and not some tiny trembly baby gazelle-woman people think I don't need sympathy and I'm super capable. Why does it sometimes seem as though only "beautiful" people are allowed to have feelings? Like "ugly" people are just supposed to be just be dull stupid practical peasant-types, plodding along, too thick to have complex emotions, too unattractive to be the heroine of even their own story. 


I know it is not a great poem but I haven't worked on anything / posted anything in months so it seemed better to post something not great than nothing at all. Got to get the creative process going again!

I do not condone violence, or hurting yourself to get someone's attention.
I have put a moderate violence warning on this poem, just in case.
I've still got a poem in me, for you.
I know it, I feel it, I sense that it's true.
All of the feelings, all of the pain
forged into language-rich links of hot chain.

I've still got a sonnet, I've still got a rhyme -
there's only so much can be healed by time.
I need the catharsis, I crave the release,
the flow of the words out; the influx of peace.

I've still got a verse and it sits in my bone;
I'll know when it's ready, I'll know when it's grown.
the torch of my feelings is still hot and lit,
and my poem for you - well this isn't it.

More like a precursor, more like a trial run,
a practice, a test flight, a battle half-won,
a vanguard or herald for what's on the way -
my rhyming-verse closure - can't be here today.

I've still got a poem in me, for you.
I'm holding it back for a careful review,
but when it is free I fear it's just the start
and I'll always have poems for you, in my heart.


Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United Kingdom
I'm a 29 year old crazy-cat-lady, living in York with my two insane felines and my lovely husband.

I'm an incurable old fashioned romantic, and love geeking out to sci-fi, video games, fantasy and manga.

Occasionally I can be found at that "work" thing, which is in a Library.

I love crafts and enjoy making my own cards, jewellery and artwork, and taking photographs. I wasn't able to take any art classes at school after I turned 14, which I really regret, as I definitely need some formal learning in order to improve.

Maybe one day I will go on a photography, jewellery making or drawing course, that would be good!

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StyxTwig Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2015
May17 2015 FavStampTHanks by StyxTwig
Kaysusanelliott Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday to you xxx
pranile Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Free Birthday Icon Blower fella (Party) fella's Gobbler (Party) 
dreamswoman Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the :+fav:! :hug:
Kaysusanelliott Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are wonderful
Queenselphie Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
aww thank you that is so nice :D
JettieHier Featured By Owner May 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I used one of your photo's for this. Thank you!
jo3s5i Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014
happy birthday!! :hug:
DragonDew Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2014
Happy Birthday Sweetie!!:woohoo::party:
Blanzeflor Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2014
I'd forgotten about The Muse. Thank you for faving it. How are you?
Blanzeflor Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2014
Thank you for Faving my poems. I appreciate you taking the time to read and I am delighted that you like them. 
channellehazel Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for letting me use your gosling picture as reference! Here's the finished piece, if you wanted to see it. I adapted it for a drawing I had to do for a friend, eheh. Hope you don't mind.…
Blanzeflor Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
Thank you for the fave!  How have you been>?
Queenselphie Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
not bad thank you :D
Stormfalcon Featured By Owner May 27, 2013
Thanks for the fave! :D
Eliteslayer Featured By Owner May 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank, thank, thank, thank, thank the user for favoriting my piece~

Rolled a 17 for my Perform check, hopefully it's a high enough roll to express my thanks for the fave.
Singingfool327 Featured By Owner May 16, 2013
Hi there! Just wanted to let you know that I used your stock here: [link] Thanks!
VariePsyche Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist
Your pics are incredibly stunning. There is something nostalgic about them and I love that! Thanks to you I discovered another side of beauty...
Queenselphie Featured By Owner May 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
aww thank you, that is very kind :)
tlclark Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Great pics. Love the castles.
Queenselphie Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much :)
StormtheRed Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love your stock photos!
Queenselphie Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much, if you see any photo that isn't stock and you would like it to be in my gallery please just let me know.
StormtheRed Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Gotcha ^^
DragonStrider Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I apologize for the lack of comments,be sure everything would be highly possitive. Your castle photos are just awe inspiring.Keep up the good work.
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